I just got back a few days ago from spending 5 days and 4 nights in Barcelona. I stayed right in the central area of Born, near El Gotic district.
It was comforting to hear Spanish being
spoken. I am not fluent in Spanish but I know a lot more Spanish than I
do German and I felt as if I was closer to home.
lucky with the warm weather there and spent all afternoon this past
Saturday on the beach. Wearing a dress. In February! Magical
Meditteranean Sea bliss.
I felt even more at home next to the ocean.
spent my days walking, watching, eating amazing Tapas, taking pictures
of the Cathedral and Segrada Familia. I went to one of the most famous
night clubs in Barcelona, the Razzmattazz. It was a 5 room club with
each room playing different music. It was certainly an interesting
experience. I even joined a Cannabis Club which is a popular subculture
there. It was very interesting meeting people there and talking to the
owners about the culture and legalization laws.
favorite experience of the whole trip was an amazing
holisitic/reiki/sensual massage I received. It felt like a gift from
another dimension. I booked a massage with what I thought was a female
massage therapist one morning.
I arrived at the center
to be let inside by a very...VERY...attractive man. With an Australian
accent. He asked me to choose a body oil that I would like. I chose a
peppermint blend since it was a 9:30am massage. Tea and water were also
offered. (And chocolate after the massage!)
into the beautifully candlelit room and he left the room so I could
unrobe and get ready. I am writing about this massage because it was the
best I've ever had in my life. It reminded me a lot of the work I do
and expereinces that I have facilitated for others.
this massage. There was a sense of connection. Of deeply being seen,
deeper then my skin of course. It was energetically healing and
aligning. He held my hand and we breathed together many times throughout
the bodywork. (Again, this is nothing out of the ordinary for me to do
with people that I work with, but I am never on the receiving end of
this kind of experience).
It was incredible. This massage
made me feel beautiful. This massage made me remember how I like to be
treated, touched, and of the marvels that I deserve. It made me so
grateful that awakened men in this universe exist. Ladies: there are men
that are radically awakened. Aligned. Know how to touch and treat a
woman. And will make you feel beautiful without saying a word, without
touching you sexually. This exists. I had forgotten for a little while,
but yes--this exists. It also reminded me of the universal language of
Reiki and energy/body healing work. The work itself is the language--no
need for words. Therefore, this work can be taken anywhere and applied
to anyone who is open to the experience.
I have had
an ongoing conversation with my best friend for a few months about
dating, relationships, sex, beauty, love, life, creativity. She is a
pillar in a my life and talking with her is always healing and fun. We
both have encountered relationships along the way with men who do not
have a desire to please women. Let me clarify: do not have a desire to
please a woman they are with intimately and sexually--however, this
ripples into every other category where a woman can be pleased. Ugh, yes
unfortunately...this kind of man exists too. Unforunately, these are
the men that have not awakened to the power and bliss of the Goddess
Woman. But what this really is, is egocentric behavior. Ego that is
unawakened. Ego that wants, takes, and has selfish desires. AWAKENED ego
receives AND gives.
Taking is not a part of the Awakened
ego, RECEIVING is. There is a difference. You can feel it with your own
energy too. When someone receives your touch, you feel more alive and
excited to give! When someone takes your energy, you may feel depleted,
or a desire to create distance from this person. Giving to them is not
enjoyable; it feels draining instead of invigorating. There is also a
lack of appreciation of what you are giving.
I choose to tap more into MY own awakened feminine, which helps me to
increase my perceptions, trust my intuitions, and have more awareness of
my feelings in order for my life to be awakened. Illuminated. For the
path to become more clear. To steer me in the direction of Giving and